I'm trying to start a new topic: It's a Diary!!!

You can write about anything slips on your mind, your hidden love, your forbidden obsession, about your family plans for upcoming holidays, your dying pets, your unlucky friends, your dream about your hot teacher, your low internet connection, or just write about your daily activities.. Write about anything!

The Rules are:
1. You can name your diary, and start your post by calling your diary's name (or just call it, "Diary," or "Dear Diary")
2. You cannot give any comment on other people's entry.
3. Mind your languange, don't swear, if you reaaaally need to do so, do it with *****
4. If you're talking about SFers, please do as in a pleasant way (not as insulting or complaining)
5. All rules for the forum are also applied on this Diary, including no politics, religion, or porn dialogue (I mean, monologue), no double posts, etcetra etcetra.

Happy writing!!

ok, cool idea, but I haven't got much to say. Oh well.

Dear diary,
Got a cold right now, so I'm stuck inside on my own. At least that means I get more time on SF , but now I have to revise for SATS. Great fun lol. Actually, I'm not feeling great now either, because I had my brace tightened yesterday, so I'm starving because it hurts to eat. Oh well, life goes on. Or does it? Actually, I did go into town yesterday after the orthodontist to get a couple of CDs. Well, there's my interesting life lol

my diarys name is YER MOM, lol, yeh so:

DEAR YER MOM, today was so p***ing off, i got made fun of so badly because of my stuttering, and my xbox 360 is still in repairs,and ZARROC COPIED ME BY BUYING THE SAME ETNIES AS ME!

OOT: Are there any rules about the length? Because if you are saying two sentences, then there really is no point.

OOT: urmm.. no, we don't have rules for post length,
The most important thing is how we express the feelings or describe things or the depth of the meaning of our entry.
But we shall see ..

Lol, im going to give it a try

Dear diary
Today was kinda busy, had to go back to the old house to clean and get the rest of the stuff out. We had to go to grammys today to but only to borrow a vacume. When Shelbs and I were done cleaning we went out and sat on the back of the car and ate chips while ppl driving by gave us wierd looks, it was kinda funny. Once we got home we had to take everything out of the car and put it away, now Shelbs is asking my mom if we can go ride our 4-wheeler!! I really hope she says yes!

Dear life

Today has been unique as most days of my life have been. It was fun going to work and reconstructing a server grid, although the problems keep persisting at the apartments. I hope to get these sorted out. Senior prom is tonight and I got asked out. I'm pretty sure this will be a lot of fun. I dropped my phone and broke the screen big whoop; I was going to get a new one anyhow. For external work I need to buy a laptop. This will probably be some where around $2000 because I need a dock with it and at least a three year warrantee. It would make pinging addresses to fix problems a lot easier in the line of connections. I hope to clean my room. It’s starting to make me mad because it’s so messy. I have a list of jobs to do for people and it’s catching up to me AHHH. At least I make money from it. I hope tonight goes well. It should be a blast.

Dear Jess...

I really don't know what came in me. I feel deprese, still happy. Like I'm two persons at the time. The worst part is my brother. I know he must study, but so do I. I really don't know why he's acting like that. Superior. At least I have books and pen. I was youst thinking on my story about 5 girls and which names would I gave them. Souch a little thing and I care. Too bad that my ''friends'' don't see that. I care for them and I allways gave them birthday present which they like. But when is my turn they forget. Purhaps I should lurn to say no. Luckuly, still bad I'm finishing elementary school, so I won't need to see them next year. But I'll miss U. He's souch a good friend.

Dear diary,

This Saturday I went to the capital city Amsterdam to (try to) get drunk
It was what we call the "Queen's Day", it's when we celebrate the birthday of the queen with a lot of beer, partying all night long, and having fun. There was a concert there of the biggest radio broadcaster in our country called "Radio 538", it was so cool I had a lot of fun..
Although I had quite some beer in my stomach (started drinking at 8:30 AM) I wasn't even the slightest way to getting drunk Ah well, maybe next year
At the end of the evening.. I got home at about 1 AM in the morning, my feet were totally dead.. I had walked and stand the whole day.. I was sleeping over at a friend, which lives closer to the capital so at least it wasn't a very long ride getting back to bed.. boy, did I sleep like a brick..

dear diary:

my post was deleted and i know why. any way,yesterday i went to bush gardens with the band and we rode SHIKRA! shikra was the highest rollercoaster thier and i has a 90 dagree angle and it stops you right before you go strait down. i rode in the front row! i went so fast that my hair got rushd back and i had a James Bond thing going on. my hiar looked cool. i tryed to help trevor get the flut player that he liked to go out with him but as soon as she was showing intrest, the saxiphone player asks her out and they start to hold hands right in front of trevor! i know how much that hurts. the worst part was when he saw them walk through thes mist thing and their was love music in the backround. ouch for him!

Dear Bobito,
Today I was at school and I smashed 2 homeruns in kickball it was really cool. So yah and I won the homerun derby in baseball 5 homeruns .

Today was just downright stressful. I feel overwhelmed with things to do plus studying for the SAT I have to take Saturday. Work wasn't even that good. I HAD to call DELL again. The stupid guy wouldn't order what I wanted him to so my boss did it. I felt bad. I also never accomplished anything because of a bunch of issues that came up and two laptops I was working on wouldn't even run through BIOS!!! It really was stressful. On top of that I have a US history Test tomorrow and a Spanish unit final to study for. I also have a math test Friday and I have no Idea how to do the stuff we are working on. Oh well. Just take it all one day at a time i suppose.

Dear Diary,

Last night I dreamt of my brother. In my dream he was smoking (in which he will never do that in real life) and I said "I want one" and I took one of the cigar. For second thought, I remember (even in my dream I remember !) that I promised my husband not to smoke.. so I return the cigar. Sudenly his girlfriend, Ranny, appear to the scene and complaining and moaning arrogantly to my brother.. It made me angry !! Then I shouted to her, "What kind of girl are you!! Bossy, nosey, possesive!!" and then she cried and they both leave..

I don't understand why I dream such thing... Were they on a fight, so in his dream my brother sent me a telepathy ?? LOL *most unlikely* I miss him.. It's been 2-3 months we haven't see eachother.

<---------- he and his gf

They both 18.

Went to different college, not seeing each other much, no wonder they fight a lot recently. I usually like the girl--but sometimes she gets on everybody's nerve..!! She's too possesive, she couldn't stand if my brother hangs out with his college friend instead of going out with her, she coulnd't stand if my brother working late doing school assignment and forget about her...

What is she thinking?? It's like my brother doesn't deserve another life! Sometimes I don't understand why they still together after those fights... not wishing they break up, of course.. (not that I would enjoy seeing him as a walking corpse if they break up)

He told my mother he's going to marry Ranny right after they graduate (about 3-4 years from now) hmm... I don't know if that's a great idea... If their relation ship is still like this, I doubt they'll survive on a long term..

But who knows?

Dear Diary,
yesterday was the worst day ever. For gym class, we had to do this dance thing called the swing and we had to go with a guy. The gym teacher teamed us up, and i HAD to go with this super ugly and retarded creepy jerk and i felt like crying while my friends were having a lot of fun... and to make it worse, some girl was taking picturs for the slide-shows we always have for assemblies where the whole school sees all the pictures the people took. and if they put my picture with that...guy, i will kill myself. so all day i was planning ways to get that camera and delete any pictures that girl took. my brain hurts now... Plus this morning when i woke up, i saw that it was snowing again!!!! it's snowing in may, and everything was finally becoming green again. i am very sad

dear diary:

last night i whent to my big bros band consert. it was cool! the songs that they played were realy good. they had a cool irish one that was called MARCH OF THE IRISH GAURD. the parts that the flutes played must have been realy hard.they had 32nd notes or something becaus that was realy fast what they played and the tempo must have been realy fast and with 16th notes. their was this gay guy their, we call him gay randy. he is so gay and open about it that the principal lets him go into the girls locker room! i told my freind that and he said this, "wow. we need to ACT gay! ". i thought that it was pritty funny. wydra was on last night and i couldnt talk to her! that stinks.

talk to you tomorow or somthing!

*added by fathskie: there's some censor applied in Saphira Forums and unfortunately this post contain one of the censored words. Sorry for the inconvenience.

Dear Bobito
Today, I got in a huge argument with my "X"

Dear Diary

I returned to saphira forums. It feels good to be back. I have alot of catching up to do.

Dear Diary,

Im going to my friends, brandy, Ty kwon Do class tonite. Or i thought i was, they havnt called yet so i dont know. Then tomorrow im supossed to go wave riding, YEAHHHHHH! And saturday im going to my friends, brandy, Ty Kwon Do tourament, i hope austin is there........... ( austin is a guy i met last weekend with brandy and i like him, and once agian i get in to deep and i'll prolly nevr see him again, which is crap) maybe if austin spends the night with scott ( his friend who is brandys friend who does T.k.D.) then maybe i'll see him, and if im REALLY lucky he and his girlfriend could have broke up. *CHUCKLES* a girl can dream. *sighs* what can i say, his blue eyes captured my attintion right away.

AHHHHH IM SOOOO COLD!!!!! im gonna go.

Dear Bobito,
Im sorry to say bobito this might be my last entry because i am leaving.

dear diary,

I just finshed the SAT's and if The SAT's are anything like Hell I really don't want to go there!!! LMAO

deer yer mom

im rly tired right now and my stuttering is a ladybug peace of ****, its soo pissing off, i realy need to find a way thatll stop it for ever, o ya i almost landed a heelflip today, and my frend got suspended for making a bad note about him doing bad stuff to sum girl and the teacher caught him, and thats all that happened today

dear who cares to read:

today is sunday and its going col so far. i took a shower and i feel realy great! im not teird at all. but, im worried about zeek. his leg has healed alot seince it was damaged but the spots that havnt healed loo a little infected. im going to put some hygragen poraxide on it no matter how much he doesnt like it. i hope i go to the mall today. i want to see what they got in spencers. for som eason my parents wont let me go. im sure my big bro would take me. hes cool.

Dear Diary,

I have so many assignments and tests these following weeks.. Not to mention the progress of my final project that not doing very well it gives me a headache. I'm thinking about have some rest to gain strength and prepare morale to face these hard weeks--even if it means I have to postponed SF for a moment.
My husband catched a cold this morning--I hope he's better soon I would want to stay at home and take care of him (since we live only two of us in this house, we really need to take good care of one-another) but I have a presentation this afternoon so I can't skip college !

Huff... bye for now

Dear Diary

I went to church today, it was good. I got to see some of my friends and listen to a preacher friend of my grammpy's, he was funny. Lynn is really serious about starting this band, im kinda surprised but excited. She said that T.J's friend Steven knows how to play the drums, so we'll finally have a drummer!! She also said that she found a really nice bass guitar the other day at Daddy's Junky Music, so i'll have to save up! Only 3 more weeks of skool! Finally, i wont have to put up with any more of the stupidity! The last 2 weeks are testing and early dissmisals though, they're still having the Banquet this year, Ryan asked me to go but i said no, they're really stupid i dont know why anyone goes. Jess is graduating!!! I cant believe it!!! I dont think i'm going to be able to make it through next year without her, she is the only one that doesn't get annoying. . . . . . Well, thats it for now.

dear whatever:

today at school i pissed my teacher off beaues in a poem that sied a kid learned how he was born. so the teahe sied, that is how the boy learned the meanin of s**. so i asked the teacher.(out loud).what is s**.now im in trouble. . i also almost did a heelflip,but it flew too far to land it.

DONT COPY me -.- if u almost landed a heel flip was it like the one i saw ( i swear i was gonna kill u man u broke my leg)

im copying u. ur so anoying. i almost did a heelflp. it just flew too far out so i could not land it. what do u mean i almost broke ur leg?

dear who ever cares to read:

today was good from the lack of bad. my comp is acting realy messed up lately. the internet on it keeps not letting me on. ill have to check the hub battery. wirless is cool sometimes but, it has more needs.

dear diary,
today was ok, yesterday was rubbish. we had to get into groups for bude (a cool thing our schools going to in july) at first it was ok , then one of my mates dcided to move herself and 3 others to different group, i felt so left out but at least the people im with are nice.
oh well, bude looks to be cool anyway.

Dear Diary,

I feel like crap today..... my room is a reck, it was clean friday but i was gone all weekend so my lil sister and my cousin trashed it ( i told myslef i would beat both of them for it but i have yet to do so.) My hair is crazy right now, i took it out of a french braid so now i look like i have a weird perm....... i went wave riding friday... that was fun. But we went in the mississippi river, eh it was nasty and i was scared i would get eaten by a aligator ( cause im a idot) but im alive! for now.
anyways i have nothing more to say. Holla!

zarroc, u say U R ALMOST landing a heel flip right? the flipping is easy, but ur flippng a million times and it flies to the other side of the park lol, and yeh u almost broke my leg it aimed straight at me.

dear yer mom: yesterday i went to the skatepark and to my surprise I SAW MY RLY GOOD FREND WHO I HAVENT SEEN FOR 2WHOLE YEARS, I WAS SOO HAPPY!! yeh hes rly good at skating he can fifity fifity land a heel flip go off the biggest ramp there and land, hes rly good, so it was quite a nice surprise to see him.

thats nothing.i almost hit zayds head.i guess i rely suck at doing heelflips.

dear whatever:
i learned how to go down more ramps at the skatepark.but i still suck at heelfliping.i did not have aa very good weekend though.

Dear Diary

This week has been bad, other than the weekend. School this week was especially hard but i only have to put up with it for another week. This weekend was good, Lynn came over and i got to talk to her about everything thats been going on, i thank God for her, she is very understanding and can relate so well. If i didn't have her i think i'd go crazy. . . . . . . .

Dear Kat,
Things or going A O K. Grandma had to start Kemo again. I am not sad anymore, I am just hurting on the inside because she has to carry these pains. Today, I woke up. I had done something to my neck and spineale ~sp~ cord. It hurts to move my head and back. Though mom did get me to come on a two mile walk with her. I am so out of shape, not fat. Not at all, really thin, just not fat. I got three side aches.
I am really worried about a lot of stuff. I am scared that I have cancer. Because when my grandma went in to see what was wrong with her stomach, that was when they said she had cancer. My whole body is always feeling bad. I have gone to the doctor. They say I am in perfect health. That is what scares me the most. I can't sleep at night. I also think that I am going to be anarexic ~sp~.
I don't do much anymore.
Yesterday Kat called. I miss her so much.

Nanna.

OOT: I used Dear Kat, because that is my best friend that I miss terribley. She is the same person I mentioned.

Dear Diary,

I had a really fun time today- I went to the fair with Ollie. It was so fun- first we went on the midnight express which goes round, up & down & side to side REALLY fast- I couldn't walk in a straight line for ages! Next we went on the cage. You start standing up, then it spins round so fast that you get stuck to the walls. After that, it rises up into the air so it's like you're going round stuck to the walls of a giant washing machine and not strapped in at all! After that we went on the dodgems and got very bruised legs. Next we went on "No Fear" which goes round really fast (up and down motion) and I thought this guy next to me was gonna hurl lol After that we went on the Waltzer, then straight back on the cage- I was practically falling over after that! To top it all off, I had a hot dog straight after the cage, so I thought I was gonna be sick! Talk about fun...

deer yer mom, my mom thinks my attitude is changin andi need to take sum kid to the skate park this coming thurday i think, hes new to the country but his dads dad is my dads good frend from canada, so this will be a nice surprise.

( nader man zayd has issues with ramps, he chipped my deck wats wrong with that kid?)

Dear diary,

I haven't spoken to you for a time now, I'm sorry.. I've just been very busy.. Yesterday a very good friend of mine (female) broke up with her boyfriend! They're both good friends of mine, and I was shocked that it had ended so sudden..
I'm so sorry for her, and I couldn't come by today because I had to work from 12 to 8pm..
There is one good thing though.. We both love each other, maybe this will bring out something good after all..?
I still feel sorry for her, they looked really happy together, but he was drunk and cheated on her..

Bye for now..

that touched my heart. ( not rly but yeah)

Dear feelings...

today some little h8er tried to make me look like a weekling....by doing the usual taunting making me try to cry...but eventually just shut his big *** mouth and went back to his work...later i went home and wrote this.....

Dear Diary,,,

Dear Diary my dear diary finally I'm posting again at SF !! It's been awhile—I still have some problem in the real life but, Hey, who doesn't ?? Maybe wont be able to log in often but I'll try to keep monitoring (d'uh, what was that, "monitoring"?? ) the SF and doing my job well..

Yesterday I had a sorta 'fight' with my husband for the first time since several months. We never had a big fight and yesterday is Not an exception, but... my feeling is not yet recovered I still can't act like what I used to—you know, kiss and hug him everytime I want it, or every morning or each time he got home—it just some kind of 'awkward' feelings I just don't feel like it

Hmm... I hope by the end of day it's all getting better.

Dear Kat,
Today I woke up, I was in pain all day. I slept for an hour on the couch at 5:00pm while my whole family ate. I put some of moms oil on the pained area. It worked, though I can't stand up or walk for very long. So, while I was home alone, my family went to a magic show at the high school. I saw a deminstrantion ~sp~ last week when I went to my brothers play he wrote. The guy is still in high school.

When I went to my brothers play, it was so good. He makes me laugh so easily. I am so glad he is my older brother. He loves public humiliation.

Dear feelings...

Today i got to wear a suit for Gentlemans club..also i found out THAT ALL THE PEOPLE IN MY GRADE ARE GOING TO....(i would ask for a drum role at this moment but of course...im writning in my diary) WORLDS OF FUN!!! but a big problem has crossed my mind latley.....something of course I HAVE to keep in my head ( no matter how many locks I have on you.) becuase my brother is expert picklocker....so i have to keep in head

till next time feelings....

Dear diary,
I forged Godzilla's signature on a paper today because my friend drew him on the map of the city that we had to make in class, he was eating a car and had micky mouse ears although we live no where near a disney theme park.

I hope he doesn't come after me for calling him an illegal imigrant.

love always,
Squire

Dear Diary,

I feel something is going to happen. Something are turning and changing and it demands even bigger attention from all of us--especially the staff. Yet all fun, but have a feeling--this untold clarity...

And oh, btw me and my husband were made up ^^ besides,, did I tell you he's never be a jealousy type??? I adore him for that and I'll treasured his trust..

Dear feelings...

I'm changing your name to Life and this is the last time im refering to you as feelings. not uch to say today just regular...norma........i think......oh well

till next time feelings (soon to be changed to Life)...

Dear diary

Today was pretty boring, after testing theres nothing to do except play card games and talk, which gets boring after the 3rd day. Talked to Anthony the other day, it feels like its been forever since i had talked with him. He got himself in a lot of trouble with everyone though, shouldn't have been talking about them behind thier backs Well, thats it for now . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Dear Diary,
today my dad took me to dillards to buy shoes for the first real time. I was taken into a large dark cave filled with many pathways leading in all directions. Stacked and categorized, the shoe boxes stared at me with looks of "choose me! I'm The one for you!' AND "I'll be your best friend". Heels Spiking and Laces tagling they looked on at me calling they're pitiful cries. I did't know what to decide on, the heels were deadly and would kill at any second, the sandals low and slinking, and Oh the sport shoes how agile they were, darting and weaving with tongues lolling. and finally I decided with $50 in hand i walked up to the cash register and bought two sandles, and one sport shoe. But still I walk out of the store, alive, tired, and hungry. And what did i get out of this you say, well 3 new shoes, a great time with my dad showing me his store, and $5 in change.

Love
Squire

yo man, the shoes for THREE was only 45dollars? dam... my shoes every pair is atlst 70 dollars lol.

Dear Diary..

I just realized that the thing is really doesn't matter-- no big deal. Lol !! (Can't say it here, can I...?? )

Ring a bell? Well--let just say... I am happy,, HappY HaPPy hAPpy... Yaaayy!!

...

...

Er...

I shoudn't be happy. What the hell I was thinkin'!! It's freaky!!

caterpillar it's 1.00 PM in the morning here I should sleep a.s.a.p

Bye Di !! Wish me luck in my dream, k ??

Byeee

Dear diary

Today was ok, we went to Canobie Lake Park. I went on the Boston Tea Party 3 times and got soaked!!! After a while it started raining really hard and we almost left but then the sun came out and we stayed, so i got to go on the rolloercoasters.There were a lot of ppl there to begin with but towards the end all the other schools had left, which was pretty sweet. We only have 4 days of school left!!!!!!!! Next friday everyone graduates, im really going to miss Peter and Jess This summer i have to leave for 3 weeks, i dont know if i can go on the puter, which is going to suck

Dear Kat,
Today Ioksok was finally able to see a pic of me. Not a good one, just one of me and my siblings.
School gets out on friday, I can't wait. Tomorrow me and my almost nineteen year old sis are going to Idaho. We are going to visit grandma Emma (the one that has cancer) we will be gone for two or three days. My mom said to tell Holly not to corrupt me. LOL. She is a bad influence in a way, I still love her though.
Well g2g,
Nanna.

dear yer mom,
today i watched the rerun of the pistons match and they WON !! WERE IN ROUND THREE , yeh and my dad is coming home with my fixd 360 lol, i rly cant wait.

dear whatever.

i havent talkt to u in a wile.today was a bad day. it rly sucked.my arabic teatcher gave me detention for not bringing a worksheet that he did not tell us to bring.ofcoars i ditched the detention then i got detention art. and i didnt go to that one either.then every1 was rely pissin me off.so i swore at one of the locals.he got so mad.he wnated to beat me up.im lucky enough that he did not.

Dear Kat,
This will be my last entry for a few days. My dad says that my grandma will probably die really really soon. I don't want her to, but I want her pain to be over.

Yes, dark clouds. Only problem is, I am leaving.

Dear diary,

I'm glad my forum is running great Everybody on SaphiraForums seem to like me too, which pleases me a lot ^.^ The shipping cost of our t-shirts are unfortunately very high, so I don't think we'll be able to sell those.. We'll also make a .com website probably very soon I'm looking forward to that

Buhbyee

in chouefat if u ditch detention u get an after school, ditch after school, get suspened ( i dont care for being suspended)

and wovle ur sites grrreat , i hope we get solembum, wyrda, a roses thorn, erais to sign up there.

What site is it??

It's in Wolvie's sig.

Hahaha, i just sign up sorry, back on topic . . . .

Dear who ever cares to read:

i saw wydras pic the other day and i was amazed. i hadnt imagined that she was that beuitifull. but their was realy not much to go by. i frankly, feel lucky. im still trying to get on the other comp so i can take a good pic of myself that doesnt look like i`m high or something, and post it here. but it seems that its always being used. i already know the caption for the pc that i might put of myself on. i think im just putting it off and i dont know why. fear i guess. o-well. see ya later.

^^

pls man dont use good grammar lol, and solembum sign up on wolvies site its rly cool, yeh now for my entry

Deer your mom,

today rocked, i got into a fight wich i won and i played my 360 all day long and im now addicted to it and theres no time to do anything else, im rly tired this week so i cant wait for weekend , cus these exams are stressing me out like hell.

Dear Diary

Today was ok, we had our Awards Banquet, which if you ask me is pointless. Jess said she would send pics of the banquet to me so i might post those, the others i posted were kinda old, but im not sure if i should. Anthony's gf was at the banquet, turns out its only Melanie, she's really nice though. Found out mom and dad want to move again I HATE THIS!!!!! I dont want to move again, they say it wont be for another year or a bit more but i dont care!!! I just want to settle down and live somwhere!!! Ever since the end of the skool year has been close Karitas been way to touchy, its like every other minute she wants to hug me and it creeps me out!! Tomorrow we get to wear jeans to skool!! I think i might be going to the mall Saturday with Anthony and Jess, so i can see how much my Vans will cost Only 2 more days of skool left *sighs* this skool year has gone by so fast

Dear who ever cares to read:

1 and a half days left! i have the math and the sience final tomorow. if i fail this quarter it will be ok becaus i passed the last three. it wont be too bad. i hope. i didnt end up finishing the math post test. today in world geography my teacher is such a stiff! he hates kids and laughs at them and says that hes not our freinds. today a kid named solaman was making fun of a chik named tiffany. the conversation was indeed funny!

tiffany: im not thouching you bottle of water! you might have herpies or something!

solaman: and this is comming from a girl whos back is hairyer than a garillas.

he got the teacher to laugh! this is very hard to acomplish. even to make him smile is an amazing feat!.
see ya later. oh! and also, theis hot chicks were trying to make the realest orgasm. it was a compitishon they were having. i was their wide eyed, and that ladies and gentlemen, was the most, interesting part of my day.
see ya later!

dear yer mom,
ima eff my teacher upside all because i was talking and joking for the class ( they all luv me) he started yelling UR BEING A SHOW OFF IVE BEEN IN THIS BUISNESS FOR 7 YRS AND I KNOW WHEN SUM1 IS TRYIN TO SHOW OFF1!, i told him to shut up, and i walked out of the class and went to the cafeteria to get a water, then i went back to class and yelled at my english teacher sum more, now he doesnt want to mess with me and he doesnt put me on discipline sheet ( i get on that thing 3 times a day atlst) and im amazing i dont have a report book yet.

Dear diary

My life really sucks right now, mom and dad are talking about moving more and more. They want to move to the island this summer to help out with camp, which is fine with me but i dont really wanna move there for good! I know a lot of ppl there and everything but i'd still rather stay on the mainland. I swear to God, Jed almost got his but kicked last night. Shelby broke up with Cody and then Randy asked her out, of coarse she said yes. So when Cody found out he swore at her and she got upset and Jed was trying to start stuff, he almost got in a fight with Dakota. And Emilys mad at me, i think because i didn't want to go to her house last night and Ryan left without saying anything to me, it really hurt. I thought that we were really good friends, it makes me sad to think that all the time i spent with him was for nothing. I havn't talked to Lynn much, shes been to busy with Ariel and Amanda, then she askes/wonders why we never hang out anymore. Lately i've felt that my dad doesn't even know me anymore, he's always at work and i never see him and if i do he doesn't talk to me. I really miss spending time with him.

dear whatever:

my history teatcher(which i hate sooooo much)gave me and my friend detention becuase we were standing and talking.and she did not get my other friend in trouble even though he was talking more than us.teatchers rely like him and never get him in trouble.and he said that was halarios.i felt like punching him.

Dear Diary,,

I just met a girl on the net ^.^ when I was chatting with my friend she suddenly pop-up out of nowhere.. She said she found my address on Shur'tugal.com (hmm... yeah I remember I sign up there :p ) and she added me because she liked my name {fathskie} lol

Her name is Tara; 14 and so cute! It's like my first time chatting with anyone and immediately felt a 'click'-- well, second time, actually, after wolvie's. She's australian and has a bf who is vietnamese and she envy me because I told her i'm asian and she said asian girls are so pretty!! lol

We talked for sometime,, she's really nice but I can't make her join SF,, she said "I'm kinda of the person that looks at these things and then doesnt ever join"
I hope I'll be seing her again..

Dear Diary

I hate life. That pretty much sums up the feelings i've been having the past few days. It seems like every day my parents are arguing about somthing, whether it be about his job or somthing thats just stupid. Other than that, i really want to call Peter but im not sure if i should, he always makes me feel like things are better and i miss hanging out with him.

Dear who ever cares to read:

im frusterated right now. but im good other than that. i just relized something, their are alot of things that go on around me without my knowledge. what am i to do? where do theis things happen? why? im pretty much as confused as a kitten with sock over its head.

Dear I forgot your name again...

Dear, Piece of God@#$ &%!^



Sorry i called you that....I lo-Can't really talk to good friend anymore...I'm not sure if I will be able to talk to her...or If she'll come back....I Cired....becuase of it....no tears came out.....NONE nada.....WHY?!?....I cry for the stupidest things.....AND I CAN'T VRY NOW!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!.........She....I can't write aymomre.....well i can write...but....i just feel like throwing you across the room.....

Till next time....

dear whatever:

today sucked.i fell off a bike last week and hurt my hand rely badly,and its still not healed.so one the the god danm mother f***ing locals took my hand and squeezed it rely hard.it hurt soooooooooo bad i was surprized i was not crying.so i called him a b**** and swore at his mom.so after the class he threw me on the floor and said:u swear at my dad.i was rely mad so i said:no,i swore at ur mom. he kicked me and i got up and punched him.his friend and my friend held him down for a min.i got so mad i went to a building with no1 inside for a min.then i came out to find my friends looking for me.they said they thought i got hurt and went to the nurse.i laghed and went home....

dear my alter ego,

today I woke up to the "non surprising awareness" that my sister was once again chating with some off the wall frag head that goes to MY church. She's been infatuated with him and now I want to kill him. One: because MY sister is crushing on him and she can do better, and Two: because I can and I want to take over the world. In Karadom, it's quiet otherwise, and I'm glad for it. I finished a book called "A Child Call IT" last night, (as in I started and finished a 170+ paged book in less than two hours) and realized how lucky I have it. Well I have to go, bi polar grandmother needs beating again. Hopefull next time I will have taken over the world.

Dear Diary,,

I just got a phone call from my mom,, she said last night one of our neighbors got their house burned to ground because of some elictricity transmitter glitch and their house is only 4 houses far from ours !! She said it happened in the middle of night around 2 AM. I don't really know them well, nevertheless I once friends with their kids.. it is misserable to lost your house.. I can't imagine how they will live on from now..

I hope they have a fireproof safety box that could protect anything valuable.. Mrs. Hastowo even fainted and her husband just dumbstruck watching their house burned to ground.

I wish it won't happen to our family... so scarry just to imagine it.

Dear Diary

JOEL LOST HIS JOB!!!!!!!! That stupid preacher dude fired him!! he said it was because they wanted to be more aggressive, yeah like we need any more liberal churches Mom and dad are always talking about moving, i guess because Maine is such a liberal state and is really exspensive to live in{which doesn't surprise me} I suggested Flordia, cause we have family down there{like thats the only reason } but they said no, its a liberal state. So then i suggested Alabama, they didn't really give me an answer so im taking that as a maybe. We have camp on the island in August, its such a beautiful month, especially on the island!{This is advise for anyone who might be coming to Maine in the future, Come in end of July/August!!!!!}. Saw Peter Sunday, i didn't really talk to him though, he acts as if im not important anymore. Like, all he says to me is "Hi", i dont even know why i bother. He and Lynn are back together i am staying out of thier relationship from now on, i dont care how much she begs for advice on what to do when he brakes her heart AGAIN, she's smart enough to say no!! Anyways, on a better note, Emily and I started a new profile on Myspace, it shows what you should and shouldn't do on Myspace. Its pretty cool, she made a background for it and i made some other stuff. Yeah, so thats pretty much whats going on

Dear Diary,

There was a MASSIVE thunderstorm last night at 4am! I had all my windows open because it was so hot, and I nearly drowned when I went to look out the window lol Also, when I got back into bed, a massive bug flew at me, so I yelled and fell out of bed Couldn't get to sleep after that, so I'm really tired now. When I got to school, everyone who lives near here was talking about the storm- apparently Craig though world war 3 had started, and was convinced somebody was bombing his house lol Mind you, Craig always did have a bit of a wild imagination... I can't believe how much homework I have! It seems the USA were let out of school ages ago- still 7 weeks to go for us *sigh*

dear who ever cares to read:

last night my freind came over to spend the night and we stayed up late. we watched the exersism of emily rose, then we watched the passion of the christ. then, we fell asleep. the day after, that tropical deppression was sending very high winds at us, so we desided to go out side. then my freind was shooting arrows at me while i was hitting them out of the way. i was getting good at it when one arrow flew right bellow my lower eye. after, i thought that i had gone blind in that eye for a second becuas i couldnt see anything at all! then i went inside with blood running down my face to see what had happend to my eye. now, as i type, i use primarily my left eye to see the keys. its a little blurry in my right but im comfedent that it will heal and return to normal. after all, my right one is my good eye.

Dear Diary,

If Andrew gives me another lecture about how "close minded" I am I'm going to be very unChristian like. I don't think alot of people get me because I'm a Christian, I have so much fun and I can have fun without doing things. I mean, I don't drink, smoke, or do things everyday people do because I'm EXTRA cool like that, and if I did do those things I wouldn't be who I am today.

If Andrew knew the truth about things that I've seen, that no one should ever see or hear in their lifetime. He'd show a little more respect.

Dear diary,,

Today i'm going to look for a guy named Avi.. I never meet him and I don't know his face.. my friend Alia recomended talking to him in my thirst of curiosity. They two are members of an a*****t community here in the country. I'm so interesting in the discussion.. it is so hard to find their community here, very uncommon.. if there is any, it is 'underground'. I hope I can meet him. I asked Cynthia to accompany me, I choose her because I admire her pluralism.

Dear diary,
MY EXAMS FINISHED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there is 2 weeks til bude( cool adventure holiday) its great

dear ma diary thingy,

TODAY WAS AMAZING WE HAD A FREE DAY ALL DAY AT SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL BEFORE FINALS AN WE WERE EATING CHIPS AND CANDY AND STUFF ALL DAY LONG AND STUFF, AND THEN THE LAST PERIOD WE WERE ALL ROCKIN AROUND THE PLACE SCREAMING AND THROWING FOOD AROUND AND STUFF, AND THEN BEFORE WE LEFT THE CLASS ROOM I SCREAMED OUT : F U ALL MOFOS C YA NEXT YR AND KISSES TO MA BI**ES AND NO TEACHER OR NO ONE DID NOTHING AND THEY ALL HEARD ME!! AND THEN I GOT HAD LIKE 50 PACKS OF GUM BECAUSE THE FIFTH GRADES WERE HAVING A PARTY SO I RAN IN AND STOLE 50 PACKS OF GUMM HAHAHA, AND THEN I THREW IT AT EVERY ONE THAT WERE HANGIN OUT AND WE WERE BLASTING MP3 PLAYERS ON STEREOS IN FRONT OF THE TEACHERS AND EVERY THING, AND DEN TOMOROW I GOT AN EXAM AND AFTER DAT ME, ADRIAN, FADI, AND EBRA ARE GOING TO RAMPWORKS FOR A BIT AND DEN WERE GOING TO MALL OF EMIRATES WITH ALI G( My frend who got hit by a car) and we might watch a movie or sumthing and then wrre gonna go to the food courtand go to that weird place that had the roasted coco nut drink and were gonna see whos man enough to finish most of it and den on 21st ( my last day of exams ) EVERY ONE IS ALL GOIN TO RAMP WORKS AND WERE GONNA PARTY AND EVERYTHING ITS GONNA BE SOO TIIGHT, and then im going to syria cus my great granpa is dying lol and hes like 90 kajillion yrs old! and then im going the U.S.A and im gonna see all my old frends and im not gonna be on SF as much cus all be out having fun wit ever one and stuff like that, and im gonna have a life besides skatepakr and mall!!
nywayz its gonna be an OK summer holiday and stuff and today was rly an amazing day that i wish would happen again sumtimes soon.

Dear Diary,,

I'm trying to create my own forum (this is my first time!!) using invisionfree in this address: http://z7.invisionfree.com/La_Nidia/ hehehehehee....

I meant the forum for a global comunity-- to discuss everything (including politics and religion)

Not quite ready for launch though... I still haven't figured out several things... But it can be accessed allright (and oh, wolvie joined )

I changed my screen name and avatar because I want to change my image (hell yeah,, I will be as strict as an admin can be LOL )

Dear diary,

Uuuuhhhh.... Nothing much over here. My Grandpa nearly died of laughter when he saw a picture of me falling off a fake bull ride. I'm proud though, I got 15.37 seconds on that ride. The ride after that I got 9.47 seconds. It was a contest to see who could hang on the longest. I was beat by five people. All of them were guys though. So at the camp I was the best girl bull rider. YYYYYAAAAYYY!!!! I played a few video games on my SP, and helped my grandparents clean the front yard.

My mom called yesterday. She misses me and wants summer to hurry up and end so I'll come home. Apparently Winston misses me to. ( He's a Boston Terrier and the people who we got him from had named him Winston Churchill. ) He keeps going in my room and curls up in my blankets. I'm not sure it's cause he misses me though, he does it to all our bed covers in everyone elses rooms too...

Dear diary,
Horrible day really. My fish died yesterday, at the ripe old age of... um... well, very old for a fish. I buried him in a cardboard box, because I didn't really want to flush him- too yucky. I've been begging my mum for a lizard instead, because they are just so funky but I'm sure my dad will say no. Oh well, worth a try.

Dear raven


This is my first entry so let me explain, there is a girl in my class called charlie she doesn't like me because her friend louise (who she didn't treat very well) has become my best friend.

Today she really embarrassed me. The pool at langford had a broken valve (langfords where we have p.e and when we came through the teacher asked us if we knew what happened. And charlie said pointing at me that i had peed to much in the loo and it had broke!!!
It was quite embarrassing, Louise spun it off at her saying the people who accuse others are usually guilty. but i still felt stupid and extremely ******.
In science louise stuck a piece of paper to her dress, it didn't say anything (no kick me or whatever) but it was still funny.
I'm a little worried she turning evil what with the evil voice ad laugh as well as talking about pranks. On top of these woes i also have to hang out with roxy and emma
who i don't like
oh well lifes hard

Dear Diary!!

I'm starting a low carb diet yesterday (Jordan told me) She said it's famous in US so I thought I would give it try
It is sooo hard to avoiding carbohydrate in the place I live. American ppl only deal with carb in sugar and bread (and maybe potatoes). But I ?? I eat rice all the time! Literally! And noodles!

Guess what they are.. yup. Carbs !!

Dear diary,


Todays been one heck of a day. In our town we have a tornado watch and the cells are moving inward to us. I rode my bike in the blazing sun and saw the clouds. I couldve swore that i saw one rotating. My best friends from detroit came back to his hometown and i was so glad to finally see him again. I got no sleep ast night as another storm rolled by. The only thing that seemed to cheer me up was the saphiraforums. yay. Now im getting worried because the clouds are getting darker. I like storms but not really severe ones. I did do some more good stuff thow like cream Nazis and plan tactics of war. Its been another doo-da-day for me as always. Nothing special.

Dear diary,

Nothing exciting here. Well, you might count the fact that I pranked my grandmother exciting. I didn't do anything extravagant though. I just put shaving cream on her face while she took a nap. She's only like, fifty-seven so she thought it was pretty funny herself. I played on http://www.battleon.com for a little while.

We went to church and while I was in the gym out back with the rest of my class ( this was before church started so we were messing around ) I nearly hit the teacher in the head with a football. His own fault, I promise.

Dear diary,
Really fun day today! Went into town at midday and met up with 3 other girls and 6 guys. We were going to go bowling, but decided not to and went to the cinema instead. There was nothing good on, so we went to the HUGE weeping willow by the supermarket. There we met 3 more guys, and hung round with them. By now there was 13 of us, and we climbed the tree, chatted, joked about etc. We then went to the supermarket for lunch, and Jimmy bought 2 large bottles of diet coke and some mints. We went back to the willow tree, and put the mints in the coke. Bang! lol We then went to some benches in the shade, where Lawrence and Jimmy had a competition- who could stick the most leaves to their face. They tore eye-holes in the leaves and everything- it was sooo funny! Next (because Jimmy is really short) Lawrence and Greg lifted Jimmy up by the underpants- they practically reached his neck! By then, I was lmao! Connor snapped his glasses accidentally, and so wore one half of them around town like a monocle! After that, Jimmy and Greg decided to go bush jumping- basically belly flopping into bushes. After that, we found a trolley in a bush, and took turns rolling down the hill in it. Someone from the supermarket saw us, and called somebody on his phone, so we ran for it. After that, we went back into the supermarket (the last place they would look for us lol) and Beth bought some sushi. She gave Ed the Wasabi sauce, and after he had eaten it his eyes were streaming lol It was an amazing day, that's for sure...

dear yer mom,

skateday rocked! right after school we all went to mall of emirates for sum food an then went to the skate park were we met up with zarroc , adrian, fadi, and ibra and we had funnn!! we skated for 2 hours and then me and ibra sitting on the fun box started jokes like well ur ADRIANS DAD and ur adirans son and adrian was in the middle of the fight lol. and den after we finished me , andrew, and yanal went to mall of emirates again and watched a movie called R.V it was hilarious and then after that i met up with zain and shiv and a bunch of girls and guys and we all went walking around the mall with atlst 40 ppl and it was amazing but yestersday sucked and so did today , yetserday i cut my hair!! now i look g a y , and today sucked because i couldnt go to bishoys bday party! cus i was at the mall every day that week but over all it was an amazing week!

Dear Diary, today I was on saphira forums, saphira forums and more saphira forums, it was a great day.

Dear diary,
Today was the hottest day in England for nearly 100 years. It was pretty hot. And I had to wear school uniform. Trousers and a blouse. It was hot. Too hot. The passing out kind of hot. Well, for me anyway. I'm not used to the heat. I guess a lot of America's used to it though. Well, I guess today was just pretty... hot.

Dear Diary,

I'm not sure what I feel lately.. Perhaps it's because of my (unbelieveably) busy days.. I never been this busy in my whole life!! And this busy-ness are not going to end soon...!! That what makes me even more desperate (?)

I've been in love with SF since the first time I register (SF was my first registered forum) and after I joined for several months I was made a mod. So many things and so many friends I experienced in this lovely online community-- I never thought I would be able not to visit it even for only a day.

But it's been a tiring weeks for me--and it will lasts for months !! I'm affraid I can't visit SF as much as before.. and this is a sad thing... I don't recognise some new active username, I don't know ppl's personality character anymore like I always did by then with the old members.. and this morning I log in and I found AnnieBee's name highlighted orange!! Gosh did I miss this much??

Mmmk... I..

... gotta do something.

Dear diary!

It's kinda weird that I think about school, but the fact is: I mist my classmates...I even mist the idiots which I had to look so many time...Weird what can a person miss? I mean, until you don't loose the thing you don't know how much it means to you. Right now I'd wish for someone who would be beside me as my best friend...purhaps I'll meat someone like that.

August...it's rainy and I don't like that...I love rainy days but not in august, cause I'm stuck in house and my dad is a bit crancky these days. Rain...I could watch drops for hours and joust watch them and swam in my sea of dreams and thoughts. I feel like I have a spider in my head. But this spider is doing nets of imagination and in each is a precius pearl...I love thinking about things like this. Don't you? Joust to be out of house...flying with birds or dywing with sirens...I found a page from some artist...gosh, I must feel in love...these paintings of fairy, sirens and all...things which I'll never be abel to draw pretty...I draw well, but I joust pretend that I'm good. At least I have my writing avaible. This is something which no one can take it from me.

P.S. Soon I'll have 300 posts in saphiraforums!

Dear who ever cares to read,

I woke up, then i went to my grandmothers and i got a hair cut. i look like an ideot now! ill have to get used to it. i found out that i could become an actor. all i have to do is grasp this chance thats right in front of me. what will i do...

dear yer mom

LONG TIME NO TALK HOMIE, last 2 months rocked i was just havin fun and out buying junk lol i went to cedar point last week and it was fun den im just having fun every day i mean its summer so dats wat i do

Dear Diary, Today has been filled with work, joy and worry. A friend of mine and i are on the verge of loosing contact for good. Even though that fear is the only one i have i know that it will turn around. Band camp was tiring. Carrying a 55 pound instrument is not fun. But im still waiting for her reply so that hopefully we may continue talking and not loose the chatting between us.

I'm so bored my diary...
It's raining and I'm a bit tired of everything...everyone is so inpatiant and my story...I'm out of idea...Today isn't my day...I'm baking few things...sweet things and I can't eat them a bit...argh! They're for my aunt birthday... the only good thing was, that I found lyrics which I seek (Around the world-la la la la la by ATC)...gosh I mist my friends. And I miss books! I really don't like to go to library at rain...

I was thinking about feelings (for the story). Why is so hard to understand them? Or is more a problem to understand other people feelings? We're so different and maybe that is the reason we can't understand. Different people different feelings...and I'm so so angry....imagine. 2 hourse of playing that freakin HP4 (It was a birthday present from my parents so...) and electricety goes off for few secunds...long enough that later when I start to play it again...that I see that it wasn't saved... things which make you mad.... I sware, that if I wouldn't be myself I would crash the computer! But I'm not like that. At least I didn't the same mistake later.

dear diary,

helllooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!