dear diary,



i like peanutbutter and peanutbutter likes me.Therefore i'm happy ?????????

(sigh)


Dear diary, Today has been calm and quiet. the only thing to entertain me for the day was a ronin gatling turret on 007 Nightfire. I was lonely and my mom was sick today and now im catching the same thing. Yet ive had so much colds that ive learned how to ignore them. I just wish that today wouldve been better. But the site and the people on it had cheered me up a great deal today and i dont know what i wouldve done without it.

Dear diary....
School is near....aaaaaa . Kiding. It'll be nice to get new friends....still I hate teaching. By

Dear Kat,

I haven't done this forever, don't know why, but oh well. Last night was Back to school and at first my stomach abandoned me so I couldn't eat anything, but my family cheered me up and so I felt better and ate. I met my three teachers Coach Lewis is my drama teacher (my sister had her as a P.E. teacher). I have Abbys and Peters old science teacher Mr. Stowers which already made ten stupid jokes. My English teacher is Mr. Averette.

Dear Diary

Life has been hell. Its like everything i do im getting in trouble!! The other day we went to the grandparents for dinner and my sister said somthing as a joke and my mom and grandfather were all over us!!! Christians can be uptight sometimes *sighs*. Dad has been touchy lately and takes it out on us when we havn't done anything and he makes fun of the music i listen to and the shows i watch! Ugh! Somtimes i just wanna yell out "I DONT GIVE A **** WHAT YOU THINK!!!". Lynn and I were suposed to go over to the island this weekend but then she said she couldn't cause she had to go to Ariel's house *rolls eyes* she's always complaining about how annoying she is and how she and I dont hangout a lot anymore and how we should but that was the reason why i was going for the weekend, so we could hangout!!!! It doesn't help that Ryan was practiclly hitting on me the other day, i told him i had a boyfriend but it didn't stop him. I just want to go away for a couple weeks before school starts so i dont go insane *sighs* . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . theres more but i dont feel like explaining . . . . . other than i think Dom is mad at me, i saw him twice the other day and he didn't say anything to me but i didn't do anything to make him mad why am i always in situations like this??

Dear whoever cares to read,
well, i told everyone that im Solembum and i appologised to Glen. i hope he unbanns me. i cant be myself as Nightwish. wow. i didnt have much to say in this one. that one Ryan guy in making me kinda twichy. hey! you watch out man! ill be their in no time! you watch out!

Dear Diary,

My dad is drving my so crazy. I can't stand all the little things he does, if something doesn't happen the exact way he wants it to, he gets all mad at everyone. And he is an uptight control freak that makes life miserable for me. But on on a happier note I think I'm going to be able to paint my room, after like a month of trying to convince the parentals. I'll probly paint it lighter color then put cool/funny/inspirational sayings on it with a calligraphy brush. I hope I can, because then I can have my best friend over and we can hang out then go to Sam's for some good icecream.
But, back to the sadness, I just had my first day of school, and the only good part of it was that we got out before lunch. I just wish at least on of my teachers told me which lunch period I have. And not to mention my locker is downstairs waaaay out in the math wing, and i don't even have math there - I have it upstairs!!!!! So, I'll probably jsut use my friends locker which is upstairs.... I hope she won't mind.[/list]

Dear Diary, This weekend was harsh on my back and everywhere else. Me and a few pals o mine were assighned to build a whole roof and attic storage for a camp. No rest until evening after cerimonies for OA. It was horrible. Being home again made me alot better and i cant wait to see what winter conclave brings.

Dear Diary,

I decided to spare some time to spend in some forums I'm moderating,, coz' I left them for several weeks already.. (due to my school activities.. as I said earlier)

My forum is half dead and now I want to bring it back to life... but I need some new members to live up the place,, I can't count on my friends coz' they dun have interest on online comunities so... Aarrghh I wonder where I could get some new members!!

(well id join but my mom says i can only join one forum )


Dear Diary: Today is going to be a total bore. I have to travel half way through Michigan with my mom today because my brothers getting picked up. I mean why cant they just drop him off here?? Its going to take all day and my cd player doesnt work anymore! What else could go wrong??!

Dear diary and anyone else who cares to read,

I'm totally bored right now because noones doing ANYTHING interestion here and there are soooo few people ever on Boksnmore (http://z14.invisionfree.com/BooksnMore/ ... hp?act=idx). I have to look through a latin text book because I switched schools and it uses a different text book series.

Dear diary,
best day I've had in months- hung around with the guys again, they are so funny. You know those zip wire things? Well they were seeing how many people they could fit on it, and it all ended up looking really dodgy. Then they all fell off. John threw his phone into a holly bush- it landed in a bird's nest and Will climbed the bush to get it out. Adam gave him his shirt so he wouldn't get scratched, but it didn't really work. Also, Will bought a paper laser, and folded it out so it was like a ribbon you do dancing with, and ended up prancing around claiming he was a sexy fairy. It was all a bit weird, but still hilarious. In the park, Kyle was lying on the floor, and Adam was going to do one of those drops like they do in wrestling onto him off a fence, but just as he jumped Kyle rolled away

dear diary,
A few days ago i got three bucks for drinking a suicide drink contaning apple juice, orange juice, fruit punch, ice tea, lemonade, pop, kechup along with a caret and a potato wege it was horible. But i made three bucks

(boy you just love to spread the word about that stuff dont you Zach? Oh and guys i was the one that paid him for it because it was my idea.)

i talked on here

Dear Diary

Went to Walmart today, i got to embarras{sp} shelbs by turning all the sterios in the music section to WCYY and dance to the songs, LOL you should have seen her face!!! Especially when i started to sing while i danced, hahahahaha it was great

dear diary,
today was boring i had 2 go with my paresnts 2 take my brother and sister to kolege(sp) it was boring but at least there gone

Dear Diary,

I'm a freshman, right? And at one of my friends parties for this one student leadership program that I'm in, no one wanted to jump into the pool. So Will, a senior jumps into the pool with all his clothes on. He then procedes to take of his shirt and belt, and when he gets out of the pool, its clear that he really needs that belt. Anyway, hes really hott, funny, nice, and cute..... but hes a senior.... Damn.... Why do I always have to fall in like with guys that I can never get?! That, and I think I like a guy on this site.....

dear diary,

i have a headache.. they suck.. im bored cuz no one is on and my friends went up north and my other one is working so im stuck at home an my brother wont take me anywhere so im just on the forums pretty much.. some1 needs to get on so im not soo bored.. school starts the 6th i think.. i hate school.. i will be happy when its summer again.. lol but i will ahve to wait about a year for that well i think im gona watch tv if no1 gets on...

Dear Diary,
today was a day completely the same with all the other... I'm bored... All my friends are on holiday and I stay home... alone... writing on a computer... that's really boring...

Dear diary, Today i got battle scars!! WOOT! I was hauling a dresser upstairs to my room and then i tripped and hit my smpine on a bed pole and the dresser landed on top of me. Heck yeah it was a horrible day.

Dear Diary,

Im sore... bike riding for 2 hrs today + half an hour of practicing pops for marching band is not very fogiving on your muscles. But on the plus side, my and my friend got to talk to some majorly hott upperclass men. *gets dreamy look on face* Band isnt so bad.

Dear Diary

NH was cool, i got to skateboard with Ryan and the others the whole weekend!! Then the whole family went out to an apple orchard and pciked apples. Shelbs took a bite out of an apple and left it on the tree, it was soo funny! School starts Tuesday *sighs* i hate it already

Dear Diary,,

Two weeks ago my husband's 11 year-old nephew (so he's my nephew also), was passed away... It was an accident when he cross the road a truch almost hit him and he was lost ballance and fell down, his head damaged greatly. So we (my hubby and I) took a flight immediately to his hometown and we cut our daily activities for several days.. My husband was quite shocked by that time, coz' it was his favorite nephew, but now he's recovering.

Anyways... usually I cut my own hair but today I was planning to straightened my hair so I went to a beauty saloon.. I was planning to re-model my hair before I straightened it but the barber (or hairdresser?) did a MAJOR mistake so I got angry in an instant and left the place immediately without paying ahh... I kinda regret it because now my hair is pretty mess up coz' it was half cutted !!! Oh well I can fix it by myself... it's not I NEED those imperfect so-called hairdresser !!

damn I lost my self control again... I was in such a good mood but they ruined it !!!

Btw I'm at a computer rental now,, the electricity in my house and around the neighborhood have been shutted-down for maintenace so I literally can't do anything at home...

Btw btw...!!! I missed my msn chat!! I miss Wolverien and Incomer and A_Roses_Thorn !! *sob*

Dear Diary

The first day of school and im swamped w/homework! I have a rough draft on Henry W. Longfellow due Thursday and the actual thing is due Monday Oh-well, at least its about poetry! It feels wierd being back at school but anyways got to get up early in the morning, so i need to get everything ready for tomorrow

dear diary,

school started today an i slpet most of the time cuz i had to get up at 6!!!! well it was boaring when i was awake an my 6th hour is office assistant so i dont do anything that hour so its pretty sweet.. i seen alot of my old friend an alot of the girls got alot hotter and some of the 7th graders are hott so its cool.. hmm nothing much more to say

Dear Diary:

Today was pretty dull. School, homework, chores, so now before bed im drinking pepsi and listening to led zeppelin.

Dear Diary

Today was so hot! It got up into the 80's!! I have a report due Monday, i really just wanna say "Screw this!" but i think i'd probablly get suspeded for the day if i said Screw, lol. Shelbs had a track meeting today so i had to go to that, it was pretty boring

Dear Diary,

Im as so uber excited right now! I just got a date to homecoming with a really cute junior! Im soooo happy! *dances* Oh, and Liz snagged a senior, how crazy is that?! The only bad thing about me going with Jordan is that Alexis is sad because she thought he liked her and yea.... I SO HAPPY!! *dances more*

Dear diary!
School started. And I'm already behind with german language....I never spoke it in difference with my school mates. And the teacher is sooo....grr....I really don't like it, ya know? And latley I'm thinking why am I so different then my school mates and friends? I can't fit in, I'm allways writing or drawing but most of the time I read books...and I don't know why boys don't like me...I mean there is a friend (joust a friend. Nothing more) and I can talk with him, but for the rest I'm the smart, quiet, sometimes even a geek. But I'm only an artist by soul....it's that too different to accept? I do not know....At least I get comfort in my writing, drawing and sometime in music....specialy when I play my flute....*sigh* I know there is someone for me, waiting...the problem is that I can't find it. Funny. A week ago, all I wanted is a book. Now I want to be same with others. That's very against my believe. People change, and so do I. But the wolf may change his hair, but he'll sill be an wolf. And right now....

enchanted love
what lies
behind the crimsons door?

dear diary,
Yester day was boring we had to be at a band thing for our schools football game and my section didn't even play at least we won 33 to 29

Dear Diary,

Tomorrow the first day of fasting month is started !! I'm so glad that the month has finally come!
Eventhough I still need to do two or three more water sampling in the lake and I need to spending the whole tiring day fasting,, but I don't really mind ^^ coz' once I determined, it really doesn't that hard ^^

I wish I could do the best and not wasting the chance... And keep my body on its best condition so I won't get sick or flu.

btw this is my first Ramadan since I joining SF... hehehehe... I've been in this forum for about 10 months now

Dear diary, This stinks my favorit team in football the Bucconers are now 0 and3

(well you were the one that came late)


Dear diary: I had barely any fun today. I got to mash grapes for over two hours and that was basically it. I also had a sudden power outage yesterday. woohoo

Dear diary

Two days in and the week is already rough. Sunday i found out Ash had given up her family for some stupid guy!! I stood in the parking lot with Lindsey letting her cry on my shoulder for probablly 15 minutes. I wanted to break down and cry with her, even though all of that stuff has gone on between our familys, i still love them and my heart brakes for them, i can only hope Ash comes to her senses soon

Diary,,

A BURGLAR ENTERED MY HOUSE!!!!

At 3:00 AM in the morning,, I was leaving my house for about an hour (don't ask for what reason ) but as you know I live only with my hubby and we both left the house from 3-4 AM. And we didn't even realize that a burglar came in,, we slept and woke up by 8 AM this morning, and my hubby was looking for his cell phone, and it's gone!

I checked my drawers and the house, it seemed that I lost around $180 cash, plus a digital camera, a gold bracelet and necklace, and some of my expensive accesories. It looks like the burglar was alone so he only took little things that fit his pocket. He left my laptop, DVD player, scanner, radio, and all larger stuff.

Gosh......

Dear Diary,

I had a really weird dream a few nites ago.
so Im drowning in a lake. The surface is calm and collected to anyone looking at it from a distance, but underneath the surface, its churning and wild. I'm trying to come up for air, but my arms are getting heavy and my legs cant kick anymore.
My heart is beating harder and faster, it feels like its going to burst forth from my chest at any moment. I keep praying that someone will come and pull me above water, but my hopes are in vain. No one is here to help... my heart finally slows, i have resigned myself to my fate.
I drop my arms to my sides, and still my legs. My eyes are no longer wide open like they were a few seconds ago, or tighly closed like they were a minute ago... no, their shut - ever so lightly... my lungs start to ache and i open my mouth and take in my first lungful of water. my head starts to feel heavy and my muscles relax
then just as im about to die, i can suddenly breath, i cough up the water, desperatly trying to get it out of my body so i can fill it with air.... wonderful air
i dotn have enough strenght to lift myself up, i only have enough to turn my head to see a person walking away - their clothes soaked....

I have no clue why i had it, but it was really freaky....

For never was a story of more woe
Than this of Juliet and her Romeo.

Dear Diary,

Last friday I found this really cool game (and being the video gamer I am I can't pass by a good game) called champions:return to arms. I like it alot and with most games I couldn't stear away from it. Today at school I snuck on(were not allowed on anything not homework related on the pc) to pass the time. This is really the only time of day I get to come on. Some days I come on after school or before I go to bed. But right now is basicaly just to pass the time and talk to people I don't get to see. I do that alot in school and end up with like 3 late papers during the day, Usualy getting them in the next day, and the bell to homeroom just rang.So i've gota go.

Dear diary,

I am so happy. we were spposed to have a band preformance but it was canceled because of the rain.

Dear Diary:


I just want to expresse gratitude to the admins and mods. Even though it will sound a bit strange, people like wyrda, rebecca, zach, anniebee, and maybe a couple of others would understand. The computer is almsot the only thing that makes me happy. Sf does. ive been hear for a long time and have been on many sites. id have to say that this is the best one yet. its done so well and stuff i just wanted to say thanks to the operators of the site and to the friends listed and more.

Dear diary

Its been awhile since i last wrote here and theres been a lot thats gone on. Mom and dad got into another fight and arn't on very good speaking grounds, they yelled at each other for a good hour and from what i heard dad doesn't even want to talk to my mom, unless it has to do with me and my sister or anything else like that. It tears at my heart that my parents are like this and i can only hope that things will get better between them but i hope my dad understands how much it kills me to live with them both being like this. I dont even see my dad anymore because of his job and this fight makes it worse, theres tension whenever thier together in the same room. Ashley still hasn't gone back home yet, she's living with Jesse now. Someday i hope she understands how much she hurt her family and the ppl around her but until then, we must wait. Cody and I arn't together anymore, actually i think its been a month since he broke up w/me, but its a good thing we're not together anymore. Anyways, the skool took a field trip to the Boston Museum of Science the other day. Some parts were really cool, others were just plain boring. We were there for 3-4 hours, just walking around looking at everything. Today i got out of skool early, i was sick so i got to go to my grandparents house and sleep the whole afternoon! I slept for 2 and a half hours straight!!!! We have our first Volleyball/Basketball game Friday, David from one of the other skools is playing for our team because his skool didn't have enough ppl. Well, im out but this is somthing thats been weighing on my mind . . . "Moving on is simple, its what you leave behind that makes it so difficult" this is so true for so many things . . . .

Dear Diary,

Recently I'm not coming a lot to SF...

I'm sorry...

Dear diary,

I miss Fathskie, come back Fathskie lol

Dear Diary

Christmas isn't that much farther off, I can't wait. And I have the worst Geometry teacher ever.

Dear Diary

Today at the youth ralley Ryan asked me out again i hate when he does that!!!! Ashley and Lindsey were there for a couple of minutes, it was nice to see ashley again.

Diary...!!

I'm so nice with you,, Look!! I bring you SMILEYS !! xD xD xD



ejoy, diary!

PS: I still have many more but.. oh well... untill we meet again xD

dear diary,
untill i figure out a good name for you a least. dad is so annoying! y wont he get a new computer! i never been this long without one at home. im tired of using the school's. oh well. ONE MORE DAY UNTIL THE MOVIE!. ahhhhhh! i finally have a diary that my little sister cant get to and read. that feels good. untill next time!

Dear Diary,

I am so drained. Emotionally and physically. I am sick (the biggest cold ever!) and i haven't gotten more than 4/5 hours of sleep on any given night this week.
I have taken 6 finals, and i am taking 2 tomoro (friday). I am so freaked out, GEOMETRY! It's the last one and I'm going to be soo distracted!

But, on a midly better note, Christmas is only a few days away! yay! i can hardly wait! i hope im all better by then!
Wish me luck on my remaining finals!

-Nora

geezus!
i dont BELIVE this! i don't know wat to do with myself. with no computer over christmas break, i'll have to go to masons house to talk to people! that's annoying! oh well, talk to ya later.

Dear diary!

It's been a while since I wrote, but I never thought that high school is so hard....and I've been felling there couite lonely....my class...*sigh* I don't fit in. They're joust different and I don't get them...better said, they don't get me. I'm the qouiet, artistic girl that has problems with german language. There are two girls (let's sey them N and A) that are the only ones that I can talk to. N loves sports, and is an A student. I realy don't know how she does that, she is qouiet too, but together we chat a bit. A is....so-so. I still don't know how her thoughts go, but she is a cheery person and I joust can't be sad with her. Accept if she is sad.

The biggest suprise for me was the secund week I think when my class had to have history with 1.A class (I'm in 1.i). They looked to me kinda....nerdy But there was a girl with glasses, that seem to me so familiar, like I've meet her before. In class of history I've found out that she is Tai San (her nickname on some forum) and that her stories inspirited ME to write. She also was shocked when I said that I was Shadowsong (HAHA!). It was like we meet in past, not in this life. Now...she is my best friend. Life is truly full of suprise. We like same things (well, not all, but most of them). And I feel when she is around.....like I found the person which whill stand next to me as best friend that world could know.

Perhaps we are not so much same. But I can feel it in my venes, I can write it in my stories.... there is some silence between us. The silence of harmony, where friendship doesn't need words, because the thoughts are enough to tell what you feel and know. She is.....truly amazing. She inspires me. I hope she thinks asame. She say's that she can't trust me all. I understand. We know eachother only for 3-4 months. I can aspect her to tell me all her secrets.

Perhaps is weird that I write so much about her.....but she is my first friend, for which I can say that is a best friend.

Till next time
Shade

Yo

td nyari2 artemis fowl e-book di gugel kok susah ya dapetnya...? besok aja deh nyoba lagi... penasaran bener,, byk yg ngrekomendasiinnya... harus dapet gratisannya pokoknya!!
Owya.. yakitate japan udah dapet yg volume 19 ^^ hhehehehhh
Btw darlingku masih pusing2.. hiks.. ingin mbantu.. tp mbantu pa ya? uhh..
baiklah,, waktunya men-treasure segala hal yang terjadi padaku setiap waktu.. entah momen senang atau menderita,, setiap detik dlm hidup sangat berarti karna ndak ada dua momen yg sama persis tho.
Owya, sebetulnya kita ndak perlu melupakan apapun lho. Ndak perlu mengingkari apapun. Karna, (quoting Shinichi Kudo ) "kebenaran itu hanya ada satu". Yea kdg2 mang kita sk 'kehilangan' jati diri sendiri dan jd lost in translation tp sbenernya tu jg satu hal yg kudu dihayatin.. tinggal sort priorities lg dr awal dan ngejaga rasio yah mudah2an bisa diterapin buat ngalahin alter ego qta.. kalo bawaannya pingin ngamuk yeh maw gimana lg udah aja ngabur.. ntar giliran diem br isa mikir, ya tho? kalo ttp ga bs mikir ya suw mungkin levelnya mang blum nyampe.. tp bukan brarti perjuangannya brenti di situ aja kan. Entahlah gw jg lg bingung apa mo kluar dr zona nyaman nie tp kok rasanya enggan sekali.. meskipun sgala indra dan firasat gw nyuruh gw puter haluan tp pantat ni rasanya udah pewe bgt manteng di sini. Iya lah gampang cuap2 tp susah bo' ngejalanin sendiri.. gw jg musti mikir dan ngebalikin lg smua kata2 gw ke diri sndiri pa bener2 gw sanggup kluar dr zona nyaman gw dan brusaha jd pribadi yg lebih baik lg?? yea yea i kno i can't change anything only by typing YEP i understand that very perfectly yet i hate to admit my weakness thus i keep on manipulating my own consciousnes so that.. dunno,, i still can live? is tat so,, will tat means tat i actully can live only by fooling my own consciosness to taht level? how pathetic. neway.. no1 knows me better than myself, duz it. so either i'd completely realize that or was this just anothre trick my sub-conscious playing with my brain hell why sould i care? I'll be in this dark circle yet on an on again no matter what so UNTIL i'm able to develop completely.. Mmm.. wait. i remember once i told you that i got rid of that little girl, and i suppose YES i DID. i did get rid of that spoiled br.at but in return i got this new creature, lol! haha! owell i can continue typing and noone would surely understand coz' im using alien typing which is SOOOO not my typing type.. this'll be d last time i screw those spellings and grammars and consider it rare you wont see me messing typo again, at least.. not intentionally

Dear who ever cares to read and can withstand the intensity of nonsense that my mind holds,

Today could have goten worse. so it would be incorrect to say it couldnt. well, it was friday and my day was goin swell untill i told this joke and my teacher thought i was tryin to insult this african american in my class. i was acting like i was her slave cus she was such a high mantenence B****! so the the kid getts up to go to the bathroom and she thought he left cus of me, so she starts glarin at me. not that typical angry glare that i normaly get, this one was the kind that pierces the very soul with its intensity. those big red eyes, like the red glowing metal of a forge. or the gates to hell. i mean this stare of hers was wicked! so i treid to shrug off the notion that he might have actualy left cus of me. but he realy didnt. so she looks me right in the eyes with those devilish orbs and says in a low, hissing wisper, I would be so offended by that. You should be ashamed of yourself.
and the whole class just stares at me also. not knowing what to think. and so i sit there, feeling this hate for her that i shouldnt have. after all, she was the one who provocted my sarcasm in the first place. so it was her fault. then after that terrible indevor, i pulled out my book and started to read, hoping that its pages would carry me off to its land of adventure and make me leave that horrible class room. and it did, untill this smart @$$ desides to say, hey, whats your book about? magical faries? and i said no, its an autobiography by your mom. im right at the part were we make sweet love. then this other kid says, no. its about magical elves. and so i say, oh look! your moms in here too. would you like me to tell you what shes doing too? and so the bell rang with its noise rattiling my ears. it was the sound relief and it washed over me like a tidal wave would a tiny island. it had ended my torment in that class. then came the next witch had its own little tale of embarresment. that of witch i will save for another time.

for when im the bordest:
Cody

Sup

Wow, i havn't written in any of the topics for so long! I've been really busy lately, going to the island and hanging out with my friends, babysitting for family and school. To start, Ashley did come come after that whole thing with Jesse, except she came pregnant. She was going to have the baby with Jesse and start coming to church on Sundays but she and Jesse got in a fight and 'broke up'. Ashley went into labor really early but the baby had already died in her stomache because her stress levels were so high, so she gave birth to it and then had to bury it. It was really hard for her and when she told me about it, started to choke up. Afterwards she and Jesse got back together, which she'll regret no doubt, he's not good for her at all and her family hates him but hopefully she'll wake up and relize all of this soon. Lindsey and Zack have become closer to Shelby and I and i think thats why, we've always thought of each other as family anyways. On another note, we only have three weeks of school left and I can't wait for summer vacation! I can already tell that this summer is going to be interesting, a lot is happening, especially on the island. I've been going over there a lot, to sleep over at Em's house and hang out with her, Taylor, Frankie and Dom. Thats another thing that will make the summer more interesting, if not hectic, Dom likes me again and I'm not sure what I should do. I mean, i've liked him ever since we broke up two years ago but i just recently got over it and now thats happened he wants to try being in a relationship again and Im not sure I want to put myself through that. It surprises me a bit because he's the one who had two other girlfriends and I stayed single, not wanting to get messed up in a diffrent relationship. Oh well, I guess I'll see how that goes. Mum and dad havn't been fighting practiclly at all anymore! I think dad was just stressed about a lot of things and thats why they said all the things they did to each other. The whole family is actually pretty happy and it's about time, i was ready to go stay at Beau's house until they stopped fighting but again, thank God it's over. My Chemical Romance is here, Ariel, Frankie, Liza and a couple other people are going, i'm sooo jealous!!!!!! I want to go so bad but my mum and dad won't let me, i hope Frankie tapes some of it for me. Well, i guess thats about it, until next time . . .

Dear Diary...
Okay, I'm cold.. why am I writing in a stinkin' diary when I could go get a blanket?? I was going crazy today and now i'm paying for it.. walked a few miles to the park, swam a bunch of laps in abby's pool, ran around chasing the dog like an idiot (not tha the idiot part is any different than usual). Fun I guess but that doesn't really help with the cold... or with the subject of life. Wonder if everybody thinks life is cnfusing? Its like a maze with a million choices and a million ways to feel... a million ways to hurt others or yourself, to feel joy or sadness. Guess thats what life IS though right? yeah.. welll okay, I'm off to get a blanket.
ciao.

p.s. ok well this is a cool quote yes? "love is not blind, love sees all things and is willing to see less."

Dear Diary,

So, I've been feeling really apathetic lately... I just don't really care.... And now its at the point where its starting to bother me, but at the same time... I could really care less...

I got the 2nd Moulin Rouge soundtrack, and so far the only thing good on it is that they finally included "The Pitch"

Snow camp was canceled - but I didn't really feel like going anyway - now it just means that i have to go to school on tuesday

Im not going to anymore powerhouse, and even though i was starting to dislike it cuz of some of the kids, i think im going to miss it

Soccer - one of the few things that I actually really enjoy now - sadly my parents seem to want to ruin that
"[My name], when are you going to start working out for soccer?"
"[My name], you're going to die when you get on the field."
"[My name], you're so out of shape."
"[My name], you might lose your captaincy if you don't start getting in shape."
"[My name], you've put on weight since XC season, when are you going to work out?"

it makes me so angry! they seem to think that im just sitting around doing nothing all the time, a lot of times i dont get home till at least 6/7 at night, and if i do get home earlier than that, i have to leave again for something else.... maybe i should drop some extracurriculars... i dont know.... not really in the mood now....

ttyl

Dear Diary,

AAAHHH!!!I hate being in 6th grade cause all of my friends have boyfriends but I don't.Though what is really scary is that I fancy my best friend.AND I think he fancys me too I don't really know what to do,I mean if I ask him if he has feelings for me he will probly say no even if he does.That is just how boys are I guess.And I even asked my mom if she could tell me how you can tell if someone likes you,all that she would say is,"You will know who when he comes".That is all she would say,no matter how many times I bugged her she WOULD NOT tell me what she mean't by that.And I have a feeling that that speical guy is the friend that I like.


talk to you tomarrow(my time)
DragonSlayer4

dear diary:

Another chaper in my long twisted story people call life. It seems like everything is getting harder and harder, like trying to see through fog, it will never work till the sun comes out and clears out the mist that blocks your view. I try to move on, try to not let my home life bother me. Its like trying to get out of the mud and you keep falling right back in it. My mom wont stop ragging me on what happened a couple dayz ago, and im being wathced like a hawk at school. The officer at school threatened me that i better stay away from my boyfriend or he's callin ma parents again. Being the only ninth grade girl that has an interracial relationship is really hard, because at school everybody watches me and my boyfriend like its a freakin movie.....there is nothing special about us. we are just like everyone else...... God, why does my life have to be a mess that is impossible to clean up.. I feel dead on the inside because they ripped my heart out when they told me that i was no longer allowed to talk to my love, my baby boy. they wight as well have stabbed me in the heart.. that might have hurt less. Now every lunch is a long dragged out half hour of torture.... he is so close, yet so far away.... i can see him, im so close to him, but we cant speak to each other, i cant touch him.... ive dreamed about him every night since like 5 nights ago.... he said hes been dreaming about just being able to talk to... its a living night mare for him.. he said that he feels so helpless not being able to walk over to me and comfort me any more......
idk what to do im feeling so lonely... like there is no one out there except my baby boy that cares for me.
Nobody that cares if i live or die.

-Walking the lonely path called LIFE-

Dear Diary

Being alone just hasn't been working out. I thought that if she was happy then I would be but it just didn't work out. I have lost track of what to do in life. I can't consentrait on my school anymore. Nothing holds pleasure in life. I do not know why this is. The only thing that can chear me up is when Im around my friends and sense Im stuck in the Hot F****** state of Arazona I can't keep this part of my life at bay. I wish the month would just be over soon. I wish life could go back to normal. I wish I could get over what is to come. Why can't I get her off my mind? Was she that important to me? Accualy that was pretty stupid thing to say. I know she was that important to me. I love her. BUt I guess love is never enough to get the job done.

Rien

Dear Diary,

Later today I'll be going to bandung for a Self Insight Awareness training. It will last 4 days (until April 20), so I can't visit you or my other forums while I'm gone.
I'm really excited! I have an HR test this morning but I haven't study... yesterday I packed and did my taxation assignment.. and after that I just too tired (especially because tax is an alien subject!!) Oh the test is open book, anyway so it's fine.. I guess

Ok then, see you within next week!!

bye now ^.^

dear diary,

i am sooooo tired. ive been cleaning the house alot.

Dear Hannah Montana,

Well,I still don't know if that guy likes me.I wish I could get some advice from somebody.Enough of that,lets talk about something else.I have the video game Eragon and theres this level that i can NOT get passed,I think its the Raz'ac Chase one,I just can't get Saphira to eat the doves,it might be because the game is a little skippy,it skips in the game all the time so I have trouble moving around,I had my dad look at it,now hes a computer genious,and even he couldn't figure it out.I should probably go now,bye.


Sincerly,
DragonSlayer4

dear diary


well yeah i have a sinus infection since i BROKE my NOSE yeah im not happy about that!! im all worried because tomorrow is jesses surgery i mean i know its not a big deal but still!!! i still get worried then i have to pack and get everything ready so we can house sit this weekend!! and their dumb dogs are really annoying so i have my lil cuz stay with me! thank god for her! AND i start school yeah no i dont want to! seriously it is soooo scary its not even funny at all!!!!! because of all of this i have NOT been sleeping and i have been having nightmeres and yeah noo not cool!! yeah writing it here it makes it seem less hmm stressful!!!!! thanks for listening diary!!

candace

Dear Diary,

Life isn't too bad right now.....i like 2 enjoy the simplest things in life right now and cant wait 4 spring!! cant believe arya is goin away 4 a week.....oh well guess i can txt her. sumtimes i feel like running away from evrything and just spendin time with mi friends.......the strange idiots that make me laugh . school isnt bad...wish i had a beta english teacher..but mite b moving nxt yr
well thats prety much it,
baby_elf

dear diary
Well, Im kinda new 2 the whole diary thing. So here we go! Well first of all I wanna say that school sinks! Good, I gots that out of my systems. I'm tryin 2 save up anough money so I can buy a laptop. My cousin moved this summer and hes goin 2 a new school. I miss him so much! Hes like a lil bother 2 me. Well, I guess i should say sorries for not postin on this website for a while , Ive just been sooo stessed out. I meen i cant even go on the internet in the privacy of my own home! I hav 2 go 2 the library. Well ok, see ya!

Dear Diary,

Today I went swimming at a friends house. It was really fun, but I'm just now realize how close school is. I mean, it starts tomorrow for Pete's sake! I still haven't even gotten used to waking up at 6 am (though I am happy for that), and on top of that, we are going to have the most intolerant, unpredictable teacher ever! You would never know how he would react to something, or the punishment you would receive from him! I'm going to try to lay low this school year, unlike last school year. Don't even try asking what I did last school year! It was sooo embarrassing, and that has earned me the 'Suspect me if there's trouble' award. I've gotten into trouble for several things I didn't even do because of that day!

I believe this stress about school is because of a different source: home. I have way too much stress at home. Most people probably wouldn't believe me if I told them, though. How could the kid who never talks to anyone possibly have any problems? All of these problems at home, they drive me insane. I don't seem to act my age anymore if you ask me. I feel like I'm 50. I am way to mature for my age. My childhood and teenage years are being wasted. I never thought I would end up like this, but then again, people are supposed to expect the unexpected.

-Ben

*In total agreement with Rim*

Dear Diary,

Sup mate? been a long while since I last wrote those words... heh... never thought I'd actually do it here of all places either... Anyways, I've been on edge all weekend, not that 'someone is watching' on edge, more like, something is going to happen and I'm not going to like the road it's going to take me down, because you know, it's not the destination that matters it's the journey there... Been playing video games all weekend trying to at least forget that feeling... seems to be the only reason I play now days well, that and because I sleep too much during the week... I think the worst part about this feeling is that it's making me irritable. I want to find a knife or something and just, I don't know, slice something in half... perhaps it will fade though... one can only hope, right?

TJ Swin

dear diary

im sad because i had my hair dyed today, it was meant to be red but it came out plum!!!! feel kinda gay talking to the computer now but oh well im a retard! i miss jack and i love him.....
thats all im going to say

Toph, don't worry it's typical, I bash at least three heads a bus ride for stupidity (I'm like, the captain, and I'm expected to at least make us "seem" presentable to the public ) they're really just a bunch of kids dieing for attention for their big win or something, just be glad they didn't start throwing banana peels out the window...

Also, guys are just like that. Thought you should know.

Dear Diary,

The funniest thing happened to me today. I saw this guy and he was like " I know the answer to everything." So I stopped to talk to him, and in a flash of inspiration, I determined the answer. That was funny. Also, I saw a duck and a turtle fight.
Sometimes I ponder the distorted nature of hummingbees. They seem to have metaphors to life experience hidden in their brains.
I met a funny African guy. He was cool. History was weird.

E-dog