Well, I guess this is 'Good Bye' SF, it was nice knowing you

Kalte Apfelmus · January 1st, 2013, 2:24 pm

It was five AM on New Year's day and I had nothing else to do so I stopped in here. I hate to say it but this place is pretty much dead and probably won't be revived unless CP somehow makes a new book that drives hoards of new fans here, but I doubt that even if he does write such a book these forums will recover.
I was looking through a couple of the posts and saw a familiar face: :-D

, and to tell you the truth it was like looking into the face of a friend that I haven't seen hide nor hair of for many years, it hit me with a considerable amount of nostalgia and I decided to go rooting through some of my old posts and have come to a conclusion, I loved this place, I still do love it and will remember it with a fond feeling in my heart, but it wasn't the website I love, it's the people. I pretty much spent almost every waking moment on here from the age of eleven to late thirteen early fourteen, I've probably told you this before but I'll tell again, I was homeschooled from the age of ten to about September of this year when I joined high school as a freshman at late fourteen. But for those three to four years this was the only place I truly had 'friends', I lived in almost literally the middle of nowhere, a place that had two seasons, a winter that lasted nine months and a summer that lasted three, during this short summer the entire place was a dust bowl and had nothing but dry dirt and a drier wind, during winter it was somewhere in the negatives all the time and had nothing but ice and wind, it was miserable. In the Christmas of 2008 my uncle's girlfriend gave me Brisingr, I kinda put off reading it but eventually did and loved it, it was the third book and I hadn't read the first two but I loved regardless and got the next two books on the first trip to the library and devoured them as I had the first. And I reread them repeatably and spent my spare time searching the web for information about the next book and happened to stumble across this place, I loved it, here were people who's passion for this series was a great as mine. I didn't join immediately and instead choose to read every topic, every debate, every theory, every argument I could find about the series. After some time my urge to share my own thoughts grew and I asked my mother if I could(being only eleven and never of had a forum account before) after she insisted on checking it out and in her exact words "It just seems to be a bunch of teenagers" I was allowed to make my profile here, I promptly created it that afternoon and later that evening I remember creating my first topic on here in the 'Introduce yourself' section I remember so many details as though it was but a week ago, my parents were watching the very beginning of 'The boy in the striped pajamas' and I was eating a bowl of those candy orange slices and spent about half an hour typing "hi im new hear" and then submitted it. I was nervous because so many of the people whom I adored as I read their every post were about to read my topic and evaluate me. Turns out is wasn't a bad I thought it would be, they said "Hi" and moved on to the next newbie.

Anyway I suppose the reason I'm writing this right now is that I feel I owe a 'Thank You' to all of these wonderful people even if they will never read it. I needed a place like this, remember how I'd said that I lived in the middle of nowhere and was homeschooled, well this unfortunate combination didn't provide me with many opportunities to talk to other kids my age so this was a place I could have fun, it was basically my playground while my former peers laughed and played with each other. I had a lot of fun here and reading these old posts brings back the memories, I miss it and would love to have just a little bit of that time back, I won't have any memories of playing 'tag' or whatever kids of that age played, I won't have memories of getting in trouble with a teacher and having detention but I will have memories of playing the 'Ban game' and getting in trouble with my parents for not watering the horses when I should have. This was my sole(I hope I used the right word here) social outlet, I had no friends, no crushes. I pretty much grew from a child to a preteen and then to an earlyteen here, my first posts may have been childish but children tend to be. This place meant so much to me, I probably would of gone insane without it and for that I owe it. I would like to go back to how it was playing in the games section with Saphira12 and Eragon+Arya but I can't and I wouldn't I had my time for that and now I no longer rely on this website, I'm not that little eleven year old who so wanted to fit in somewhere and never has that been more apparent to me than now as I type this while listening to music I wouldn't of liked that is sung in a language that I didn't know but whose syllables now hold meaning for me. I'll miss this place but am moving onwards, for what I don't know and would be lying if I said I wasn't just as nervous as that eleven year old kid making an online forum profile for the first time.

I may come on every now and then but for the most part I'm done here.

So in summary: I had a great time here with some great people and will remember it fondly but as Rammstein put it...
Weiter weiter ins Verderben...
Wir müssen leben bis wir sterben...

Auf Weidersehen Leibe Freund. :-D

Well, I guess this is 'Good Bye' SF, it was nice knowing you

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